i cant help that i feel like im gonna be with you no matter what. i would drop anything for you, and i hate that you know that. you know that im always gonna come back to you & that scares me. you were my first love. you were there when i was growing as a person. you know me better then anyone. we’re from two different worlds and i still feel like we were meant to be. theres not a day that goes by where i dont think about you or think about how much i miss you. you accept me for me. i could have anyone else but deep down inside me its you i wanna be with. i dont want to jump into things all over again and have it blow up in my face again. im scared you didnt change. im scared to leave everything behind for you. i want to trust you but i cant. after everything we’ve been thru together we’re still in the same place. i cant stay mad at you anymore. i want you around all the time but your so far away. i know we’re good for each other. the distance is what kills us every time. with you, its  one way or another, no in between. i want to make this work more then ive ever wanted anything. you are the only person that makes me feel this way. after almost four years you still give me butterflies. we have the cutest love story. my friends think we’re good together. your the biggest ass hole in the world but i dont care. i cant help but love every little thing about you. i dont want to miss you anymore, i dont want to have too. i wish you were here while i was fucking up my life. i cant go anywhere in the world now because of what ive done to myself when you werent around. i dropped out of school, i got kicked out of my house, i crashed my car, ive been doing the stupidest things and not thinking about consequences, and the ultimate consequence is that i cant do the things i want to do with you, for you. i want to snap out of the rut im in. i want to have a successful life with you, just like we planned. i dont care who knows it anymore. its you and me for life and thats all that matters.